WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE A ARTIST IN THE 21 CENTURY

I am a 21st century artist. I have been practing and studing on my own for years. Now that I have some what, come to understand what I am about I tell myself, I C.Terrell have choosen one of the most challenging carees on the plant. Im sure this is my calling at least that is what my heart and soul is telling me yet the question that is playing over and over in my mind says What the Hell are you doing? Being an artist for the pass fifteen years has really been a challenge. What is it that you do when you have the cutting edge work of your century? Artist in need of advice